Monthly Archives: December 2012

A Sunday Kind of Love : Marianna Paige

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This week’s love is Marianna Paige. I just discovered her a few days ago. She writes little poems, phrases and creates whimsical illustrations. They are just a collection of her thoughts and drawings. There is a great mix of fun and profound which makes for a perfect way to spend an extra 5 minutes while waiting in line at the supermarket. She also uses a typewriter to compose most of her written pieces. Old-school Mairanna. I like it.

Again, I haven’t read everything she has written. So, if you visit her blog and find something offensive, I apologize.

Here are a few of my favorites:

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What to do when you feel small

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My family.

To say that today is a ‘small’ day would be an understatement. It hasn’t been a small day. It hasn’t been a small month even. It has been a small year.

2012…the year everything shrunk.

From the outside looking in, I’m sure it doesn’t appear this way. But in the inner cavities of my little heart the smallness crowds me.

This has been a year where things for those around me seem to have blown up. Their friendships, their finances, their careers, their families, their influence and skills… surged in 2012.

I’ve worked hard, prayed, and done my best. Being overlooked is painful, but I would have preferred it this year. Instead I was seen. Very seen. Weakness and awkward attempts were hidden from no one. I am blessed to be surrounded by support and encouragement, but I just didn’t have moves like Jagger in 2012.

So, reviewing my year I am struggling to get over my sense of smallness. It is a totally self-inflicted viewpoint, I know. I wish I could say that this past year I dealt with this emotion well.

Oh, to say that I prayed and fasted and memorized scripture and served my peers to help them succeed even more.

But I didn’t. Heck no, I didn’t. I pushed as hard as I could. I wrestled with envy and let it win most of the time. I minimized the fruit of people around me. I plotted how to gain more success. I smiled when I didn’t mean it. Maybe even to you.

Embarrassing, right? I know you did stupid things this year too, so I don’t feel totally exposed here.

It seems like most people I have talked to lately are struggling with the same thing. So, what should we do when we feel small?

  • Confess. No, you don’t have to post it on the internet like me. You should tell someone though. Amazing what bringing people in does.
  • Grow. This sounds like the obvious solution, no? Well, I am planning on growing this next year. Not trying to get bigger than my friends, just grow. I want to do a better job this year than last. Period. And the outcome of how large my growth is will be up to God. I’m at peace with that…I think.
  • Realize that bigger isn’t always better. Big towns are better than small towns. Big blogs are better than small blogs. Big churches are better than little churches…or so I tend to think. But, it’s just not true. Bigger isn’t better. There is a purpose in smallness and mid-size. We need to recognize that more.
  • Keep dreaming. What happened in our lives last year doesn’t have to dictate what will happen this year. God loves a good surprise. Plus, God doesn’t use cumulative GPAs to rank us. Each day is new.

So, that is my humiliating confession that I will most likely regret posting just a few hours from now. Hope it helps those of you who feel like 2012 shrunk you too.

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A Sunday Kind of Love: Bittersweet by Shauna Niequist

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via Shauna Niequist

If you are looking for a good book to read over the holidays, look no further. This is the one. It is one of my new go-tos for reading. It is funny and deeply raw at the same time. I’m in love. Here are some of my favorite quotes from the book:

“It’s not hard to decide what you want your life to be about. What’s hard, she said, is figuring out what you’re willing to give up in order to do the things you really care about.”

“When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. And when life is bitter, say thank you and grow.”

“…sometimes the happiest ending isn’t the one you keep longing for, but something you absolutely cannot see from where you are.”

If you find yourself in a tender place this season or in the middle of transition , you’ll love it. I promise.

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How I Survive Doomsdays & The End of The World

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Don’t worry. It is juice not alcohol in the glasses.

This is me the night the world was suppossed to end. Remember Y2K? I was a senior in high shool, and I heard months of build up about the impending disaster that would send the whole world into chaos and ultimately an unavoidable doom.

Some of my friends actually stopped studying because they were convinced that the Internet would combust and all their scores would be lost. No, I’m not joking.

Other friends stockpiled water and hosted prayer meetings on New Years Eve. No, I’m not joking.

I actually knew a family that had backpacks packed for each family member with survival items. They also buried supplies around their land so that over time when their supplies depleted they had secret stashes that no one knew about. No, I’m not joking.

New Years Eve (aka the predicted last night of a civilized earth) started with my hitting a deer. Actually, the deer hit me. Honestly, he ran full speed into the side of my moving car. That was the closest I came to being hit by a freak asteroid on Y2K. Except the deer died, not me. The rest of the night was spent hanging out at my friend Lauren’s house. If you are going to enter into a freak Internet meltdown Armageddon you might as well be with friends, right? Unless you are Liv Tyler, then you spend your Armageddon with Ben Affleck.

I survived Y2k so what’s my plan for surviving this Mayan doomsday? I’m gonna wake up on Saturday morning. Just like any other day. That is my plan.

Some of you wonder if the world really is ending. With the decline of education and the rise of Honey Boo Boo and all…

No, seriously. There is some rough stuff going on in the world and maybe you found this post looking for answers. I can’t tell you when the world will end, but I can tell you how to find peace instead of anxiety amidst it all. Jesus.

He gives a peace that mankind longs for and a destiny that speaks to the aching of our souls. Good thing for you, He works nights. So if you are laying awake tonight wondering what tomorrow holds…I suggest you talk to Him about it. He promises to answer.

 

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The Question That Will Change Your Life

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This question really will change your life. I have asked it countless times. Sure, 95% of the time it doesn’t change a thing. The majority of my “What ifs”  never materialize or are forgotten five minutes after I’ve spoken them.

I have a billion “What ifs”  in a day. Many are ridiculously ambitions and driven by the emotion of the moment. However, some stick. I have moved cities, forged new relationships, and set off on fantastic adventures thanks to this question.

What if I just saved up my money for a year and went to Italy?

What if I adopted?

What if I let myself really fall in love?

What if I’m wrong?

What if I went with some friends and planted a church?

What if I applied for that career in the fashion industry regardless of my lack of experience?

What if I wrote down what I am thinking?

What if I stopped apologizing for the way I see the world?

What if I wore red lipstick even though it seems fantastically bold?

What if it was different than I’ve always thought?

What if I sold most of what I own to get out of debt?

What if I tried something new? Something I’ve never considered doing?

My list has led me to countless countries, taken me into the vulnerable depths of God’s love, merged my life with amazing friends, and birth dreams I’d never considered before.

When my life seems stuck, I always go back to this question. I sit with God and ask the biggest “What if ” I can think of. Bigger, bolder, beyond my ability…that is the space God lives in. That is the life He dreams for me.

I’m taking the next few weeks to ask some new “What ifs” for 2013. What is your favorite “What if” question? I may use it as I dream into 2013!

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Sunday Kind Of Love : My Team Jersey

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via Lovocracy

Today’s Sunday Kind of Love is this amazing t-shirt. For those who are punctually challenged like me, consider this our team jersey. You can grab yours over at Lovocracy. A great Christmas gift for so many people I know. Including myself. Go team!

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