this kinda sums up how I felt yesterday.

 

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via Heather Inglis

On days like today I am so very thankful that I follow a really big God. When I was in college I dreamt of law school, prosecuting dictators for their war crimes, helping run political campaigns, planting churches by the hundreds…and lets be honest…we all secretly hope to be discovered for some deep wealth of gifting. Be interviewed by Oprah, have 100,000 followers on twitter, and run the circuit of late night talk shows.

This is what my day looked like. I cleaned the house. Went grocery shopping and ran errands. Went hunting for socks that were separated in the laundry. Pulled a Lego out of my son’s bottom (no, I’m serious ). Made dinner. It is really easy to feel average on days like today. Who wanted to know my opinion and ask for advice? My six year old. Thats pretty much it. What did I run today? The vacuum.

On days like today there is a temptation to look back at all those dreams of potential and God’s heart for this earth. Its so easy to feel like they are slipping away. Then I remember. I spent all day caring for people. Just like Jesus. I didn’t learn law, but I helped Sophie learn to read. I didn’t use my skills at logic and deductive reasoning inside of a court room…but they did come in handy as I helped my kids  learn how to  resolve their conflict.

I can end my day knowing that I was loved today and I gave love in return. What could be better than that? Really, all the dreams in our hearts are put there by God. Because He has dreams for us. I don’t really have ambition to participate in war tribunals or run political campaigns anymore. But I still beat to see justice established in my generation. I want to scream at the top of my lungs for all those in the world who are trapped in silence. God knows that. He made me.

Life is full of seasons. Some people are running campaigns longing for the day that they have families. Its the nature of longing. Every season has it…until we get to Heaven. In the midst of waiting for the promises of God to be fulfilled we have grace to thrive in our season. Resting in the truth that God is faithful. He isn’t constrained by time limits, resumes, or people who feel hidden. He sees, He knows, He calls. I am at peace.

Now I am going to clean the kitchen.

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5 Comments

March 22, 2013 · 8:00 am

5 responses to “this kinda sums up how I felt yesterday.

  1. I just love this- everyone can identify with this…and today you are being that voice for the many who stay silent…in the bondage of discouragement. You voiced encouragement- and that is VERY loving and VERY powerful. And you voiced the truth that the thing all our hearts long for is heaven…and until we see it fully manifested, we can hold onto our trustworthy God. So good. Preach it lady, preach it.

  2. Hang in. Your blog today reminds me of when my kids were little! Working, mom,student( yes I went back to college at age 31) . It is all worth it! Your friend.

  3. Christie

    Love this!! May need to be reposted on NA!!!

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  5. Wow, incredible insight and word.
    I made an account simply to follow you weekly!
    Again, Incredible.

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