and so I ran

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Welcome to week 4 of my series on fear. I had no idea when I started My Intangible Cage series a few weeks ago all the fearful things that would be going on these past few weeks. North Korea threatening nuclear war, numerous shootings, and discovering that the mother of a girl in my daughter’s kindergarten class has cancer. Then yesterday there were bombings at the Boston Marathon.

What do you do with that kind of news? Most of my day yesterday was spent thinking about the situation in Boston. One of my good friends ran the marathon last year and several others were there watching this year.

I was preparing dinner and struggling with a heavy heart. The news was reporting stories of marathoners who finished the race and ran to the hospital to give blood. Other doctors were sharing about amputating the legs of runners who were still wearing their numbers from the marathon. And then the news of the 8 year old boy who died waiting for his dad to cross the finish line.

I choked back the tears, but not tears of fearful distress. Tears of determination. A determination that I won’t be shut down & humanity will not live in defeat. We will be sad and we will grieve, but we will not live in fear.

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I’m not sure why I felt the urge so strongly, but I felt the need to run. I am NOT a runner, but I tossed dinner in the oven and went to the back yard where my kids were playing. As silly as it sounds, I began to run around the yard. Perhaps it was an act of solidarity & a way to honor those who had been victimized during the race earlier. I am not sure why, but I just ran. And ran. And ran.

My kids asked why I was running like a mad woman. I told them I am running because I am alive and I can. Soon we were all three running through the backyard.

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And so I ran. 

I ran for the people of North Korea who live under a oppresive government and can not move freely as I can.

I ran for the mother of Sophie’s classmate who can not run with her kids in the backyard because she is  recovering from a brain surgery to attempt to remove her cancer. 

I ran for the victims of the Boston marathon bombings.

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This week has not been what I expected and this is not the post I had scheduled to write. However, the discoveries I have made about fear this week have been significant. North Korea, the mother’s cancer, and the bombings have taught me this:

I want to embrace the gifts I have been given and stop fearing what could be taken.

These are not days to spend sulking in our intangible cages and living within bars that are shadows of limitaions. We  cannot believe the lie that our confinement keeps us safe. We can not believe that fear is the responsible response.  Fear is never safe. These aren’t days to remain paralyzed by fear.

These are days to run.

Run the races that God  has marked out for us. Run because life is worth living. Run and have fun taking new ground. Run with determination that we will not be held back. Run with hope that what we are chasing is better than what we are leaving.

Run because you are alive and able. Why do you run?

Fear, I have a destiny & you will not keep me from it. ~ My Intangible Cage motto

 

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31 responses to “and so I ran

  1. cried reading this. what a prophetic act. love it. made me want to get up & run. run for my brother who is paralyzed & can’t run. run for the runners who just lost their legs to run with. run because i can and so many others can’t. thank you for running. and for sharing. powerful & amazing.

  2. Makes me want to go swim! Swimming is my running. Way to attack things, Elizabeth!

  3. I adore this post, and I love your heart!! Run sister Run! What a great response to such scary things. I’m in.

  4. Oddie

    Such a beautiful piece. Yesterday in an attempt to pray for Boston, I broke down crying. I felt powerless and did not know what or how to pray. I let fear get the best of me most days, but today, you’ve given me a challenge. Thank you Elizabeth.

  5. Wow. Yes. Powerful. Thank you for sharing. For running. For not giving up on humanity. Love your heart. I will run.

  6. Veronica Serrano

    This I’d so good! I love how this just oozes the hope and the love of Jesus. You inspire me to think and to love in a way that can be tangibly grasped by anyone. That’s how Jesus was, your living it and loving in a way that anyone could catch on to this hope. I love how God just busts us out of our cages when we trust him. He blows my mind every time. Thanks!

    Vern

  7. Lolly

    I cried when I read this, too. You inspire me, Elizabeth. Fear would love to keep us paralyzed. Jesus broke open the cages that held us captive, but it’s up to us to run out of the cages and declare freedom. To face fear and declare it will no longer control us. Then run with wild abandonment the race set before us.

  8. Beautiful post, Elizabeth. Grateful for your wisdom & honesty.

  9. Beautifully written. This post makeshift want to run too. I was trying to think of a way how to address what happened yesterday in my own blog and did not know how. Thank you so much for writing this. You have said it all so elegantly. It’s time for all of us to run in honour of those who have fallen if we can.

  10. I love the idea that “fear is not the responsible response” !

  11. Christina Crenshaw

    Your blog was messaged to me by a friend on FB today, and I’m discovering it for the first time.

    Great post! My husband and I lived in Boston for 4 years collectively. We did premarital counseling and were newlyweds there. We led lifegroups; started our careers; completed graduate school; survived blizzards; vacationed up and down the East coast; attended Marathon Mondays; established ourselves within deep community. We made lifelong friends and memories in Boston. And our marriage is better for it.

    Your post not only captures the solidarity we all feel for having lived life together in Boston, but it also invites others to partake. Running when others can’t: that is the body of Christ!

  12. Czassy

    God’s perfect love casts out fear and He sure does in you! Thank you for sharing this. May you be blessed beyond measure 🙂

  13. Kelly Buck

    Beautiful, such a great response. Thank you! “Running” today!

  14. Found this through a fb link the other day and shared it with my homegroup last night because it helped to give us determined to keep going and hope that there are greater things yet to come. Thank you for sharing and inspiring us. Keep running!

  15. gillian

    I run for my nation (England) where there has been such bitterness and anger shown by some towards Margaret Thatcher after her death. She may have been a politician, but first and foremost she was a woman loved by God, for whom Jesus died, and it breaks my heart to see such anger against her at her death. I run for those people- that God will save them from their anger and bitterness.

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